Get It Off Your Chest

[xX_Lol6_Xx]

Oh, nice to meet you, Harley. I'm Héctor, but you can call me :[Lol 6]:

[xX_Lol6_Xx]

8 minutes ago, Starduster said:

I share a lot of the frustrations and feelings being shared here. Right now is a really wholesome time in the Doom speedrunning community - since all of you need some cheering up I'll link this thread.

Give it a read. It just might make your day. :)

Yeah, it's good that the speedrunners are having fun. Nice achievements for 2020 (good grief, was it an interesting year?)

[pilottobombadier]

I work Tier 2 tech support for a major ISP (Hybrid Fibre-Cable network), and I have absolutely fucking had it with COVID.  For the uninitiated, Tier 2 means that I handle support and escalation.  

Which I do from home, with my wife also working from home beside me.  And both of us are pretty temperamental folks when things don't go our way; we're both often pretty frustrated with our job atmospheres outside from us. 

It's like fucking RF noise, as you get more frustrated, the other reads off you, absorbs and manifests your frustration into themselves, and then auras that shit back out.  Actually, I suppose that's more of a representation of noise reflection and self-amplification, but pretty sure you get the idea.

And, as you can tell, I have a very hard time turning it off.  I've been doing cable service tech support since 2011.  I've learned it, trained it.  I breathe, eat, and sleep it.

My wife...I think she has that problem, too, but won't admit it (at least insofar as her job functions).  A lot of it comes out in the form of frustration.  And it's very depressing to be around, and I imagine it's the same for her when I'm trapped in the "I'm surrounded by idiots" headspace.  Although, Scar does have a point.

The difference is that he wasn't in a position to offer up constructive feedback.  

At any rate, I feel surrounded by toxicity - work and home separation is bullshit when you work from home and are surrounded by that kind of noise up to 13 hours a day (depending on our shifts).  

But, if we want to see improvement, we need to actually push for the change.  You can bitch and moan all you like, but if you don't/can't propose solutions, and don't/won't act on them, nothing will change.

[dei_eldren]

Uggh.  My girlfriend of 1 year and 6,5 months dumped me yesterday.  What was clear after all that time was that she didn't get me at all.  And i really truly feel like i'm done with women.

[BoxY]

My roommate is a fucking deadbeat alcoholic disaster, my landlord is useless and I can't wait to finally escape this dump/prison that I laughingly call a home. Over and out.

[Good-Old]

If something, if I actually got some privacy would just scream an entire 10 minutes at the top of my lungs because of this goddamned life. 
In the shortest way possible, my parents impose their decision on me everytime, they always get a pass to win arguments just because they're older, regardless of how illogical what they said was, they don't allow me privacy because according to them, the only probable thing I could need that for is porn. I haven't really contributed anything to the internet yet, and definitely not irl either, I'm a terrible something and I don't see myself going to be employable in the future, either.

 

Edited January 9, 2021 by Good-Old

[Lizardcommando]

I would do just about anything to move out of my tiny, shitty apartment right now. I have no privacy. If I get sick, there is no place to socially distance and isolate myself. My roommates are loud and annoying. The neighbors around my apartment complex are also loud and annoying. The city I live in is a loud, dirty cesspool. I want to move away somewhere safe and quiet. A decent 1 bedroom/ 1 bathroom apartment with an in-unit laundry setup and onsite parking. That's all I want.

 

I can also go on about my shitty job situation, but I'll save that for the next edition of this topic.

[Yandere_Doomer]

@Lizardcommando i wonder if your custom title is sarcastic, because there there is a bunch of memes with that phrase with Dognutters [yes, i am Team Dogfree]

thats another thing that i cant stand, Dognutters. they take no responsibility for their little hellspawn and they just let them do whatever they want. what i think is really hilarious is that they say that "Dogs are really intelligent!" but once their dog does something bad or stupid or whatever they are like "Hes just a dog! he doesnt know any better!", Seriously.

 

And that stupid slang that they use! what is it..Doggolingo or something? if you dont know what doggolingo is and or sounds like, let me give you an example of a Dognutter speaking it, "My heckin good doggo gave me a bork! last night he gave me a scare with that borkin! hes a Good boi, 11/10." see how cringy that is?

I mean, they know english, right?

 

And those pitbull owners saying things like "Oh come in, its fine, he wont bite, youre just scaring him, he can smell your fear."[like that makes the situation more comfortable?!].

 

people need to stop treating their dogs like babies and start treating them like what they actually are......dogs. [no offense @Lizardcommando]

Edited January 12, 2021 by Deathclaw886

[insertwackynamehere]

Also why do people going around saying “omg I hate cats they are evil” and everyone is fine, but if you even hint that you aren’t really a dog person suddenly everyone is disgusted with you?

[Yandere_Doomer]

4 minutes ago, insertwackynamehere said:

Also why do people going around saying “omg I hate cats they are evil” and everyone is fine, but if you even hint that you aren’t really a dog person suddenly everyone is disgusted with you?

EXACTLY!! one thing with cats though is that they are more agile, so they can jump on a table and knock a glass over. but a freaking dog will take down that whole table, glass included!

why if someone says something violent about a cat, they just laugh it off, but if i say something even REMOTELY negative towards a dog, people are like "YOU ARE EVIL!!"

Edited January 13, 2021 by Deathclaw886

[xX_Lol6_Xx]

Well, it really depends. I have a dog, and even though she is kinda dumb, she's an awesome dog, she helps us to calm down when we are stressed, we play with her (well, it's mostly me who plays with her). And yeah, cats are more agile, but they really aren't domesticaded. For example, a cat would leave the house for almost the whole day, but the dog will (most of the time) be with you. The dog is also very helpful, not only psychologically, but for work too. They've been used to help the humans for a long time.

36 minutes ago, Deathclaw886 said:

why if someone says something violent about a cat, they just laugh it off, but if i say something even REMOTELY negative towards a dog, people are like "YOU ARE EVIL!!"

Well, there's the "prejugdment" that the dog is the best friend of man. And of course, everybody has their choices. For example, my mother had ten cats when she was a child.

Just don't listen to those who criticize you for having cats. They're DUMB, yeah, DUMB and STUPID

 

Both animals have their pros and cons, and it depends of you whether you like the most

 

You have the right of chosing either cat or a dog, and those who criticize you for your choice can go suck d*ck

Edited January 13, 2021 by Lol 6

[Yandere_Doomer]

32 minutes ago, Lol 6 said:

 The dog is also very helpful, not only psychologically, but for work too.

well for me the dog has caused me more psychological torment more than anything.

Edited January 13, 2021 by Deathclaw886

[pilottobombadier]

1 hour ago, Deathclaw886 said:

EXACTLY!! one thing with cats though is that they are more agile, so they can jump on a table and knock a glass over. but a freaking dog will take down that whole table, glass included!

why if someone says something violent about a cat, they just laugh it off, but if i say something even REMOTELY negative towards a dog, people are like "YOU ARE EVIL!!"

That's because they have their biases and don't understand that they can be and do better :P

On that note, I am a cat owner, and I can testify that they are a bunch of self-centred psychopathic - OH THEY ARE SO CUTE! - But, yeah, the only thing I would ever trust my cat to do is eat my face after I die.  

I will say this about cats:  The smarter they are, the bigger the asshole they are.  With dogs, not so much.  I find the less intelligent they are, the bigger the asshole they are. But, the smarter they are, the more energy they tend to have, and if you don't have the right lifestyle, can be a royal pain in the ass.  That probably won't eat your face after you die.

That said, pet ownership is way better than being alone right now.  By far.  I have a wife, I have two cats, and I would rather have that right now than nothing.  I'd prefer a wife and one dog, but I'll take what I can get.

[CorianderCastor]

I hope this American civil war doesn't get hot. I'd gladly take peaceful divorce over that.

 

I've never really had friends, and have always felt like a perpetual third wheel in any social interaction. Yet I'd, most likely, be mostly happy once I get my life on track. Wish I had creativity though.

 

And all this talk about dysphoria and dysmorphia makes me feel like my brain is wrong. Oh well. Should just get off social media honestly.

[Lizardcommando]

6 hours ago, Deathclaw886 said:

@Lizardcommando i wonder if your custom title is sarcastic, because there there is a bunch of memes with that phrase with Dognutters [yes, i am Team Dogfree]

thats another thing that i cant stand, Dognutters. they take no responsibility for their little hellspawn and they just let them do whatever they want. what i think is really hilarious is that they say that "Dogs are really intelligent!" but once their dog does something bad or stupid or whatever they are like "Hes just a dog! he doesnt know any better!", Seriously.

 

And that stupid slang that they use! what is it..Doggolingo or something? if you dont know what doggolingo is and or sounds like, let me give you an example of a Dognutter speaking it, "My heckin good doggo gave me a bork! last night he gave me a scare with that borkin! hes a Good boi, 11/10." see how cringy that is?

I mean, they know english, right?

 

And those pitbull owners saying things like "Oh come in, its fine, he wont bite, youre just scaring him, he can smell your fear."[like that makes the situation more comfortable?!].

 

people need to stop treating their dogs like babies and start treating them like what they actually are......dogs. [no offense @Lizardcommando]

Although I do love dogs, it was actually a reference to a quote from Metal Gear Solid where Otacon was talking about Sniper Wolf. He was begging Solid Snake not to kill her since he thought she was a good person because she likes dogs, even though previously, she had shot Meryl.

[seed]

On 1/9/2021 at 7:12 AM, Good-Old said:

I haven't really contributed anything to the internet yet, and definitely not irl either, I'm a terrible something and I don't see myself going to be employable in the future, either.

 

Give yourself a chance, that mindset is not going to do you any justice, I've been there myself and only finally able to crawl out of it, no thanks to (almost) anyone though.

 

We'll all find our place and do something productive, we've just not found what that something is yet. Growing bitter and boiling in self-hatred is only going to hinder everything you do, and it's something you need to overcome one way or another, but it can take a lot of time and effort to do it, and keeping at it.

 

I do understand the lack of privacy issue though, we all have things and maybe even problems we'd rather not share with anyone regardless of their identity and relation to us, it's best to keep stuff to oneself sometimes, it really doesn't hurt. Sadly, not everyone understands this. Being 100% open doesn't always work, not in this world, and its important to not give others more power over ourselves, they can only have as much as we give them.

[TwinBeast]

I have herpes in my lip. Apparently it's worse than I thought, that it can spread even when having no visible symptoms. Probably explains why it's also more common than I thought, 70-80% of people have it and most of them don't even know they have it as they don't have noticeable symptoms.

 

Haven't bothered to read more about it earlier, as it was just a minor nuisance about once a year. Now found a girlfriend and we kiss a lot, so I started wondering when I need to tell her and looked stuff from the internet and the internet tells me maybe I should have told her like two weeks ago. Although two weeks ago she did see all the medicines I have in my medicine shelf, which includes a package of acyclovir and the package has a short description on it telling what it is used for. But can't assume she read the description and then didn't say anything about it.

 

Yesterday I was freaking out a lot because of this, and walked around the room very restless. There's a deep imaginary groove on my floor. Do I worry too much?

 

I tell her tomorrow.

[ReeseJamPiece]

I keep getting sharp pains in my head that won't go away, I have been on medication for it for a while but nothings working. Recently I have been getting low mood and I'm concerned if it may be serious. I have had a lot of concussions throughout my life and I think one of them might have given me some form of brain damage. It sounds ridiculous I know but I don't want to rule it out. What should I do? 

[Yandere_Doomer]

14 hours ago, Lizardcommando said:

Although I do love dogs, it was actually a reference to a quote from Metal Gear Solid where Otacon was talking about Sniper Wolf. He was begging Solid Snake not to kill her since he thought she was a good person because she likes dogs, even though previously, she had shot Meryl.

ok. but that exact phrase made me think of all of the Dognutters out there, and i had to share it here

[Hellbent]

On 12/14/2020 at 1:23 PM, ReeseJamPiece said:

Basically what the title says, just say what you gotta say.

 

I'll start:

 

Lately, I've been feeling low. I'm not the smartest or cheeriest of people and I don't really do much. All I seem to do is take and take with no real purpose. Things aren't as fun as they used to be and I don't really know what to do.

Ride a bike! I'm sooooo happy that I got into cycling. Biking is so awesome. And it gets better with age.

[ClumsyDoomer]

- My close friend died from cancer last July. 100k messages in the history, the absolute record so far
- My beloved cat is aiming for the bucket with her cancer, too
- Been living alone in a desolate countryside with more stray dogs than people. To hell with dogs, btw
- Been trying to form a band and seeking sound production jobs for last 2-3 years, failed in both
 

Spoiler

There was a time when producers got all the money from the releases and the musician got almost nothing - everyone was fine with it, and it kinda made sense. Now that we have VST and powerful PCs in our hands, the producers get nothing as well, since everyone can become one. The tutorials are out there, all the required tools are freely avaliabe - get some speakers and you're good to go, let your love and curiousity drive you. Now getting paid are the "tutorial authors". And, since music and sound production are subjects of art, you can do infinitely right and infinitely wrong things, but your net worth only depends on your advertising, connections and people you have worked with. Funny and scary. Despite all that, high education in sound production still exists somehow, and the diploma remains somewhat valued. A blatant loophole.

Also, no matter if you pay the person beforehand or not, it won't be trivial to get a honest and fair review of your creations. I got only two kinds of responses - "it's awesome" and "it's not my thing". Kinda obvious that they simply don't want to say directly that it's shit, or is it not? Is the moral obligation worth more than the truth, so that it's not a problem to simply filter it out? Is it time for artificial selection to go together with the natural? Well, gotta somehow fix the bug with all the confused acting when there's no usable euphemism for some situations.

- Failing at the uni because of laughable accidents, lack of attention, panicking, etc
 

Spoiler

Had a good chance to follow the progeny and get a headstart from them, but wasted it forever long ago. Instead, chose some niche scientific shit that is under the state secret. Didn't even know that before applying there. Now there's not a single hint about the future, yet more and more underwhelming "discoveries" about the routines. Cancer, dust chambers, zero public vacancies, remote facilities in the middle of nowhere... yeah, you guessed it. Pretty complicated, too.

- Health issues, some of them irreversible
- Whenever tried making friends, made enemies instead

Spoiler

Since i was 10-11, i had amazing friends. Any sort of divergence in world views and opinions only made us discuss the stuff, or at least forget it without conflict. Any sort of mismatch in the areas of knowledge only made some brain food, rather than a morbid collision of worlds. I felt safe about abandoning everyone else and burning the bridge upon any significant conflict or unanswered question. 

That might sound like a definition of a "normal" friend, but now i'd consider that an astronomical jackpot.  Good people are rare, and the worse ones don't seem worthy of any time. Feeling spoiled by all that, can't properly trust any new people and take new acquaintances seriously. And, frankly, they tend not to take me as well.

One little detail that feels like a passive debuff: all of my best and longest-lasting friends contacted me first. Vice versa hasn't worked well even once. No matter how pathetic it might be to "just sit there and expect something good to happen to you on its own", that seems like the option now.

 

The most likely scenario of the near future is me being kicked out of the uni, maybe finding a cheap lowlife job i'd be able to sustain and slowly descending into shit. Got a massive "heritage" to dispose, but it's not infinite and just makes the shame overwhelming so far. The compromise between dealing with mistakes of the past vs ditching an unsuccessful attempt is puzzling like never before. Thanks

[Good-Old]

On 1/13/2021 at 6:38 PM, seed said:

 

Give yourself a chance, that mindset is not going to do you any justice, I've been there myself and only finally able to crawl out of it, no thanks to (almost) anyone though.

 

We'll all find our place and do something productive, we've just not found what that something is yet. Growing bitter and boiling in self-hatred is only going to hinder everything you do, and it's something you need to overcome one way or another, but it can take a lot of time and effort to do it, and keeping at it.

 

I do understand the lack of privacy issue though, we all have things and maybe even problems we'd rather not share with anyone regardless of their identity and relation to us, it's best to keep stuff to oneself sometimes, it really doesn't hurt. Sadly, not everyone understands this. Being 100% open doesn't always work, not in this world, and its important to not give others more power over ourselves, they can only have as much as we give them.

Thanks for the reply, also it's good to know you've finally crawled out of it after a year. I don't really hate myself all that much, but it's just the people around me who sometimes make me, and the fact that my parents win all arguments just because they're older, regardless of logic, and a ton of other bullshit which would turn my post into a blob of copypasta-like material so I'll stop.

[seed]

9 hours ago, Good-Old said:

Thanks for the reply, also it's good to know you've finally crawled out of it after a year.

 

A few years*.

 

It started way back, around the beginning of 2017 or so, and it only worsened from that point. It wasn't until after mid-2020 when I finally made constant progress on that front, progress that has stayed, not just high points before reverting to Black Depression.

 

At any rate, yeah, I can also relate on many levels, but as I said, try not to give it too much thought, it only strengthens other people's influence on you, regardless of their identity.

[Misty]

Things lately aren't that good much I wished for... My mental health is at the lowest point in past few years when lockdown hit, things look bleak and hopeless. I became anxious depressed blob(hitting new levels of that), pushing through the days and nights. It's hard, especially, then I'm supposed to be strong and keep others up. I hope, better days will come to my home too.

[Maximum Matt]

Okay, I got somethin' I wanna get off my damn chest.....

I think Pharoh, the secret level from TNT (map 31) is one of the coolest and most intricate maps evaaar, right? I've been working out all the sequences and encounters and how this joint works for ages now, but one thing has still remained a mystery to me: where the hell do they keep the cyberdemon before it is summoned for that encounter on the invisible platform?  Seriously, I've been noclipping everywhere and I can't find the bastard ANYWHERE - is he in some little box between some rooms or something?? Does he teleport in?? Is he in the floor somehow?? I must know!!!

But seriously though, Pharoh is the shit

[Taw Tu'lki]

I can't stop jerk off. Every day I do it. Watch some hentai and *you know what I mean*.

[Yandere_Doomer]

19 minutes ago, Taw Tu'lki said:

I can't stop jerk off. Every day I do it. Watch some hentai and *you know what I mean*.

oh my gosh, same...... hentai too.....ehehe....

i think i watch hentai a bit more than regular porn now....

[Taw Tu'lki]

9 minutes ago, Deathclaw886 said:

oh my gosh, same...... hentai too.....ehehe....

i think i watch hentai a bit more than regular porn now....

I mean any pornographic art based on a particular cartoon or game.

[Yandere_Doomer]

Just now, Taw Tu'lki said:

I mean any pornographic art based on a particular cartoon or game.

yeah... but mainly i pretty much just watch the hentai that everyone else knows about......

it isnt wrong right? hehehe... no no no no... im not harming anyone.....

 

ive always had an inner monologue contemplating if i was doing wrong by mastu...... umm, you know what... to hentai

[KeaganDunn]

2 minutes ago, Deathclaw886 said:

yeah... but mainly i pretty much just watch the hentai that everyone else knows about......

it isnt wrong right? hehehe... no no no no... im not harming anyone.....

 

ive always had an inner monologue contemplating if i was doing wrong by mastu...... umm, you know what... to hentai

From what I've heard, it's only a problem if you're doing it nonstop, and/or it's getting in the way of your life.

 

This is one hell of a conversation