Tarnsman

V2.7 of LKTex is out. Includes mostly new metallic base textures and various fixes.

So over the weekend, I made this quake map that uses some solid colors found in Khreathor's prototype texture wad, part of a speedmapping session that was held over the course of a week.
 
Play it here!

Map Playing/Review Repository:
 
Been meaning to make one of these for a while. If you see this and you have a map or map pack or megawad you want me to play, post it under here (or PM me if you don't want it to be publically released yet).
 
Content will be played primarily on Friday and Saturdays on my Twitch stream. (If you don't want it played publically I can do a written review but make no promises on the time table for that)
 
All content welcome.

Map Playing/Review Repository:
 
Been meaning to make one of these for a while. If you see this and you have a map or map pack or megawad you want me to play, post it under here (or PM me if you don't want it to be publically released yet).
 
Content will be played primarily on Friday and Saturdays on my Twitch stream. (If you don't want it played publically I can do a written review but make no promises on the time table for that)
 
All content welcome.

Doomworld
Hello everyone, I was, honestly, not planning on making a new post/statement regarding the situation expressed on my previous status post, but while there’s been quite some silence on the surface, there’s also a lot of movement on the background that has hurt me and also boycotted the Wadazine, so, here are my new points:
 
- I am not a Doomer Boards advocate
- Some of the stuff I been called, accused and told, and had to deal with
- The Doomworld Staff issue
- The behind the scenes
 
1. I am not a Doomer Boards advocate
People that are trying to hurt me or give me a bad rep, have used this as their main selling point. I am NOT a Doomer Boards fanatic, emissary, diplomat or advocate. I DO NOT like the place and I DESPISE some of the idiotic shit that’s said around there.
 
Some people have accused me of being a supporter of them and their mini-page, using this against me because I have an account there. You are free to visit my account and see how much of a ''supporter'' I am. All this was born out of the fact that I defend the Doomer Boards Projects (the WADs) and apparently it is impossible to play Doom without thinking about the moral consequences of playing a collection of maps made by very bad people.
 
I also want to express that even though my experience of the DBs is negative, that doesn't mean that I will detest everyone who has ever been or is a member of them. I'm sure you know a few who are both members here and there, and I don't see them being called out or accused of what I have been accused of. Which leads me to my next point.
 
2. Some of the stuff I been called, accused and told, and had to deal with
This I expected, no doubt, but I did not expect it in such a heavy and direct way, and from such people. I have been called a bigotry supporter (for the above), called a sexist, and implied to be a fascist. I have been told that my server is a home of hateful people (because I have a moderation policy that consists in not autobanning people or not having a blacklist) and this has even reached my team, some members that are completely innocent of all this issue. Suddenly, my influence has turned like a black legend. I was even called, in an ultimatum, a 4chan user. What the fuck? I don’t even have an account there yet I somehow made it.
 
I have been banned from multiple Doom servers, and even ones that have nothing to do with Doom. When I searched for an answer, I only found strong accusations against me, and comments that reveal to me that there is a banlist that must be honored. I have lost connections with people with whom I have worked with mutually in a perfect state of respect and admiration, and passion for Doom. Now it’s just whispers in the wind, a few just ghosted me instead. I lost a considerable amount of my team members and have to re-structure my entire server, which I am having some hard time doing because I don’t even know who to trust (more on that later). So, in the end, I have received terrible backlash just because I posted my concerns and exposed some of the behind-curtains stuff going on. Yet I never banned anyone, don’t own a blacklist of unwanted, never reached out to anyone (until I found out there was some smear against me going on) and I didn’t even respond to the updates on my status. I felt, FELT, like I said enough, but now, I have to come back again and defend myself because it reached the point that I was even threatened with influences and power.
 
3. The Doomworld Staff issue
And this, more like a statement, is an update. Turns out, there’s much more stuff going on than I anticipated. Some of the staff reached out to me, some didn’t, and some prominent people (including people that are not even DW-active) also went to contact me. Whereas before I thought the staff acted as a cohesive unit, now, thanks to various comments from both officers and veterans, I have discovered that the team is incredibly fractured. There are those that completely despise me right now, those that are trying to stay neutral on this, those that bashed me publicly but partially agree, and those that agree but don’t want to make it public. So, what is it? Where I once thought I was calling out a unit, I now feel like it’s just a collection of influential individuals struggling for control, and that’s why there has been no major word from them acting as a whole during this time. I’m pretty sure there’s no leadership, and I know for a fact that the DBP ban was not unanimous. I would really like if this changed, but fuck me, I don’t even know because there’s actual influence at stake.
 
4. The behind the scenes
Now, I believe I am quite sure who are the individuals behind my Discord fallout and excommunication, I hope there’s not more. While at first, I thought this would just end up as a quiet thing, it ended up turning into a path of revenge against me. Before I kept quiet, but now I have to be contacting people I worked with before to avoid them thinking I'm a misogynist, abusive, violent, or bigot. In other words, I have to actively defend myself.
 
Some have listened, been reasonable and expressed neutrality in a fair manner, while others have severely hurt me and even the Wadazine. I know for a fact that members of my team are now on watchlists. That seems too much to me, call it hyper moderation, call it power abuse, or whatever, but it is not fair for them. People are free to ban me from their servers if they feel it’s right, but when they have to maintain an unwanted-list, they might want to reconsider their views.
 
Of course, I know there’s plenty of chat behind my back around, probably a lot of negativities against me. I’m always welcome to discuss it. I didn't kick anyone out, and didn't ban anyone from my server and I am pretty sure I answered to every single person that sent me a DM, either to bash me or support me.
 
Not only did influential people contact me, but also regulars, some lurkers, some people that were actually hiding and finally felt free to speak up. Some may say: Oh, look at this dude, he believes he’s the messiah. Heck, closest thing I am is torn-apart dude, but I’m doing it for the right reasons. Because people actually feel there’s something wrong going on, and it’s being hidden from them.
 
I was threatened with a ban, or to be more precise, best case for me, a temporary ban, only that would happen, I was told. Well, I haven’t been banned because I believe that some members of the staff are quite divided by this. So, I really hope things get FIXED, not just settled, not just drowned or forgotten, but fixed. It’s at least, one step to admit that there’s a power struggle, and then work it out. Talk to the people as I am doing, or just ignore me and keep silent.

Map Playing/Review Repository:
 
Been meaning to make one of these for a while. If you see this and you have a map or map pack or megawad you want me to play, post it under here (or PM me if you don't want it to be publically released yet).
 
Content will be played primarily on Friday and Saturdays on my Twitch stream. (If you don't want it played publically I can do a written review but make no promises on the time table for that)
 
All content welcome.

Map Playing/Review Repository:
 
Been meaning to make one of these for a while. If you see this and you have a map or map pack or megawad you want me to play, post it under here (or PM me if you don't want it to be publically released yet).
 
Content will be played primarily on Friday and Saturdays on my Twitch stream. (If you don't want it played publically I can do a written review but make no promises on the time table for that)
 
All content welcome.

Map Playing/Review Repository:
 
Been meaning to make one of these for a while. If you see this and you have a map or map pack or megawad you want me to play, post it under here (or PM me if you don't want it to be publically released yet).
 
Content will be played primarily on Friday and Saturdays on my Twitch stream. (If you don't want it played publically I can do a written review but make no promises on the time table for that)
 
All content welcome.

So, here I am.
 
This has been a difficult 24 hours, to say the least. I recognize that moderating decisions haven’t been very popular here as of late. I also realize what’s been flying around has been a lot of misinformation and vitriol. So here’s what I’ll address.
 
1. I have always been as transparent as I can be about my own moderating decisions. If I ask someone to message me, it’s usually because there’s little sense in continuing to derail the thread the moderating decision was made in. I will always refer people to a second opinion or an admin if they do not find my decision was agreeable. 
2. I don’t have control of what other moderators do. I will address a non-public decision (i.e. a warning) as best I can but I won’t always have the answer, unfortunately. We mods talk a lot to each other but we don’t talk about every single action we take. 
3. I realize that it is not great that there is no FAQ, public staff page, or rules. This was something that was an issue long before I came on board and there have obviously been some attempts to address this. We’ve been working as hard as we can on it but rule-making on such a widely diverse public forum can be difficult, to say the least. I have said many times in moderating discussion that I can’t imagine how frustrating it must be for people to receive warnings and sometimes not know what actions they could take to prevent being warned in the first place. This is something that will be addressed as soon as humanly possible. It will not happen overnight.
4. I tend to take as hands-off a moderating approach as I possibly can, but that does not mean there will be no consequences for shit-posting or shit-headery. Some people seem to think that any moderation action is a bad thing, and that approach simply does not work for this forum, due to the volume and diversity of members. 
 
Lastly, Endless, I’m going to address you, by saying that despite what has happened, I dearly loved and appreciated the Wadazine and its efforts. I loved contributing to it. I loved watching you grow into an avid reviewer and mapper. And that hasn’t changed. I hope you continue to do well for yourself, wherever your journey goes. And I mean that, sincerely. I can’t say I’m not disappointed at what has happened, but I will never regret the past year of contributions and fun we had. 
 
My door is open for anyone to talk to me, leave me constructive feedback about moderating, how to improve the site, etc. I’ve fielded all kinds of feedback from all sorts of places and people since I’ve become a mod and I appreciate the love and passion that you guys still put into this site and its longevity. But most importantly, I just want to know if something is a problem before it blows up. I don’t want anyone sitting here feeling like they can’t touch me, can’t talk to me, can’t look in my direction because I’ll ban them if they do it wrong- that has never been my M.O. I’m empathetic to a fault and I’ll always do my best to level with people. Just talk to me. I’ll answer, in kind.

Disclaimer: My original thread got nuked, deleted.
 
Banning of WADs, Hyper–Moderation and the Recent Issues at Doomworld
 
Disclaimer 2: I couldn't publish this first because the DBPs thread is locked.
 
Hello everybody. If you haven’t heard of me, my name is Endless and I am a self-called WAD addict. I love Doom and I love the custom content. I’ve been playing on and off since 2013, if my memory doesn’t fail. I’m also the creator and editor-in-chief of the Doom Master Wadazine, a free fanmade e-magazine dedicated to the Doom saga. In other words, I love Doom.
I like to think that I’ve been part of this community since 2017 or so, when I started to become a bit more active. Before that I just lurked a lot, seeing all the stuff happening and things going on. It is with great pleasure and satisfaction that I began to realize that this was a close-knit activity, full of passionate creators, artists, programmers and fantastic multi-talents sweating gold. I was fascinated by the idea that such an old video game had such a large and active group in the modern day.
Yet now, I’m starting to believe that there’s something wrong going on behind the curtains. Since recent memory, some things have occurred that have shaken me slightly regarding my faith in this place and this community. I usually stay away from drama and shitposting, but today I’m honestly hurt, not necessarily by one single action, but the accumulation of various things. Before starting, I want to express some of the points that have led me to create this:
 
- The total ban of the Doomer Boards Projects.
- The increase in moderation activity.
- The decrease in infrastructure activity regarding Doomworld.
- The highly inclusive stance that’s not actually inclusive.
- My personal opinions (Oof, what a dangerous thing to say).
 
1.      The total ban of the Doomer Boards Projects:
The very first point and the thing that really made me tear up a bit today. If you've been a follower of my reviews or activity (thank you very much by the way) it's no secret that I've been a big fan of the Doomer Boards Projects since the day I met them. From Monuments of Mars to Auger;Zenith, I've played the vast majority of the projects and reviewed them. Each WAD has been a delight to play and something I have thoroughly enjoyed. Some WADs have stuck in my memory, becoming almost a nostalgic part of my journey through Doom. There is no doubt that this series is the most consistent series of WADs in quality and number in the history of Doom. 39 projects, if I'm not wrong, and if I could give an overall rating to all of them, I would say: great. Now, that's my opinion of the WADs, of the maps, of the art created, and here comes my problem.
 
Suddenly (maybe not so suddenly) they’ve been banned from being published on Doomworld (and probably also promoted, which would get me in trouble) I'm honestly not sure. A percentage of the authors have been former creators of these forums who were previously banned, some even before I was on Doomworld. The creation of the Doomer Boards was born out of this. Personally, I don't care much. If I don't like the person, I don't interact with them, but if their work is good, I have the decency to at least not shit on them. Apparently the Doomworld staff considers them misogynists, xenophobes, racists, terrorists? Idk. I'm sure that more than one of them is like that, but all of them? No. I've met great map authors who started out on the Doomer Boards and I'm pretty sure they're none of those things. Probably the key word among all the accusations is that they are fascists. A word that carries weight but seems to lose relevance. Now it's just a sort of insult used to accuse someone you don't like.
 
And in the end, they decided to ban the projects altogether. I'm sure there are members that the DW staff hates from there, but I'm sure there are others who simply wanted to create maps for the projects and yet they completely screwed them up too.
 
I think this is NOT OKEY. I'm not as old as the community, but I'm sure this is the first time WADs or Mods have been banned completely from any kind of publication for posterity. Not even terrywads had this much moderation. I am a person who believes in free speech and the right to create. Regardless of whether you like them or not, or consider them ''fascists'', the future of the entire projects did not deserve to be banned for the actions of others. I will use a simple expression for this: Separate artist from art. I'm sure more than one will point out that the projects promote negativity or whatever. One of the examples given is that the projects should be banned because they promoted the Doomer Boards page. The image in question seems totally harmless to me. But apparently it is treated and seen as a propaganda act that results in the creation of some sort of army full of ultra-right wingers and I don't know what else... and yet DB doesn't even have 500 members.
 
Before this there was the discussion about whether or not Auger;Zenith would win an award. Honestly, I was sure it wouldn't, but I never expected that they would ban the projects completely. What does this mean for me now? I will probably receive subtle threats as I have received before if I decide to promote WADs. Maybe not, but I doubt it. Oh, also, why lock the announcement thread? Can’t the DW members voice their opinions there?
 
And this last paragraph might be a bit paranoid, but I feel like this could just be a chain reaction. Suddenly, more and more WADs could be outright banned for reasons that seem to trivial or might not even be known.
 
2.      The increase in moderation activity
I initially thought this was a good thing. Finally, a new wave of moderators to help out the increase in activity. It ends up resulting in something mixed. While I appreciate the moderation when it comes to shitposting or attacking posts, I've found that it's become a bit of a content blocking and banning party for the slightest offense. I think we can all agree that there’s more closed threads or downright deleted posts now a days than ever before. If something breaks the rules, then first make the rules clearer please, and in the end, I think it is better to keep threads locked than to delete them completely. At least the evidence works as a guide of what not to do.
 
3.      The decrease in infrastructure activity regarding Doomworld.
Oh, this is not really a new one. Since 2016, Doomworld hasn’t changed pretty much at all, and is on a decadent state that’s quite shameful to be honest. Some problems that need fixing will probably never be fixed, and the first excuse of it tends to be that it’s impossible because the forum software doesn’t allow it. The truth is that I am not an expert in this technical subject, so take this as a customer's opinion; the news section is dead, the Downloads section is dead, and this is a serious one that personally hurts newcomers who wish to have their WADs in some sort of download center or modern WAD repository. The threads section is a mess, and it was supposed to be fixed, but there seem to be no changes. I think that rather than a problem, this is an example of a simple lack of interest or power in wanting to fix it. I guess it's not as important as it used to be. A homepage would work wonders too. On a side note, I have to credit the recent increase of concern and activity regarding one single administrator that’s trying to get shit fixed.
 
4.      The highly inclusive stance that’s not actually inclusive.
Doomworld frames itself as a very welcoming community that accepts you in any shape or form. This was something I really liked and felt especially nice because I been an outcast for too long in real life. I was feeling welcomed here, like I belonged for once. This didn’t last.
 
First of all, the early days of Doomworld were not as acceptable as they are now. And don't tell me Doomworld was a less toxic place compared to the rest of the internet. It was full of idiots, abusive, violent moderators and the like. Read some of the older threads (/newstuff for example) and you will quickly realize that everyone was immature. The very foundation of DW was a toxic one. It's a good thing that they changed over time, but as much as they changed, they also brought the problem of hyper moderation. Now there is a fear of any kind of discussion, opinion that is not acceptable or divergence in beliefs or any ideology. While the truth is that I don't care if they argue or not in any kind of forums, I find it improper to point fingers at other places or people for being fascists, when here the cradle itself still has stains of a dirty past.
 
5.      My personal opinions (Oof, what a dangerous thing to say).
I don’t really enjoy drama or making discussions in a place where the main subject is related to a videogame, not real-life issues, but I think this is the time I speak out. There is a certain Doomworld elite (the very word elite sounds silly but I think it describes it well), while this sounds like a stupid conspiracy, I have been involved on some of this issues myself. I don't think it's worth naming names or sentencing titles, but certain members of the Doomworld staff are abusive, self-centered and armed with power/influence. I have had discussions that could have been handled in a more civilized manner, but instead I have had to deal with sarcastic comments, heavy handed accusations, threats to cut off relationships and remove my support. This is because I am editor of the Wadazine, a magazine dedicated to Doom and WADs in particular, and the only one of its kind in this community. So, if I publish something that’s deemed as offensive or not-likeable, well, I’ll get in trouble. I already did I believe. However, I have no major support from the staff, a few great members have promoted me every once in a while, but it seems that everything has fallen silent since certain problems started to rise, and I didn't turn back to fully praise the opinions of others high members.
 
I love Doom, I love that it has been alive for almost 3 decades and it’s more popular than ever. But I don’t know if I love the community that much anymore. I support neither Doomworld, which abuses power and hides intentions behind moderation actions, nor Doomer Boards, which is full of unfunny shitposting and seems to complain more about Doomworld than playing Doom. After that, I don't even know what other forum is left alive. Doomworld is practically the central hub for everything Classic Doom related, but, unfortunately, it has become a quasi-political network by this point.
 
And it has reached a breaking point for me. I’m just sad, to say the least. I like to create content, activity, play WADs, write about them and so on, but now it seems that the focus of the community is elsewhere.
 
Oh, and by the way, as a disclaimer: This is Endless opinion, not the Wadazine opinion or even the teams, these are my word and what I think. If you want to discuss, you discuss with me.

Sorry but your pfp quite reminds me of this. 

Exclusive preview of my next map

After a long time, I decided to use the nickname gave me long time ago from... Some other guy on a stream AFAIK.

me opening the doomworld activity feed:

where's btsx e3

i'm gonna piss in your cheerios