Endless

I just realized it's been 5 years (Sept 1, 2017) since I joined the community. Nice. The early years, I remember I still couldn't speak English quite well and was just getting started into the world of Doom. It actually took me a while to get the gears finally moving and I became quite addicted during my 2019-2020 season. I've been playing on and off since 2013, according to Steam, and well, since then, a lot of shit has happened, some bad, some good, some great, some terrible. Doom has being quite the companion to me. The early years were full of awe and amazement. Discovering new WADs to play, source ports to try, mods to boot up and so many other things to try out from the massive galleries of custom content that the community produced, it was, well, pretty damn addictive.

While I now feel a little bit off of steam (tired), I still play at least once a week. Perhaps it's the nature of things, to get burnout of the our favorite hobbies, or perhaps it's just a dent in the road, anyway, I'm pretty sure I'm not going anywhere for a long, long while. Doom is a great game, my favorite game, yet, the community is what really made it for me. The creation of the Wadazine has been one of my greatest achievements. A niche internet magazine, for a game that's almost 30 years old. I like to think that my efforts will leave a good mark in the history of this community. While I felt tired and disappointed at times, I'm always coming back for more. I actually had planned to celebrate my 5 years of Dooming with a megawad community project some months ago. Something Alien Vendetta and/or Eviternity inspired, limit-removing, perhaps. Sadly, I believe I'm not a good mapper, and I still struggle with anything that has to do with SLADE, but who knows? Maybe next year. For now, I just want to play, and perhaps write for Doom. Writing is my little corner of peace, the place I can be, and the place that lets me be. I'm happy to know that people read what I write, at least for Doom, even if only a few. I started like that, reading the reviews of many from the /newstuff Chronicles, and then reading the Cacowards features, and the awesome articles/essays created for the 25 years anniversary. Now that was really fucking awesome. I hope I can create something similar someday. I hope.

Anyway, happy 5 years of Doom to me! And thanks to all the people that have helped me around anything, and made me some company in the solitude of the shores of hell!