-
Posts
1076 -
Joined
-
Last visited
-
thinking about starting over
- Show previous comments 4 more
-
oh. Well, I wish you the best with your new account!
-
hi guys
-
i'm tired of people antagonizing me because i look at the grey in everything, or because i'm something that they don't like, or because of a mistakes i admitted to that's constantly held over my head, or because i have shown interest in something. i don't know what i wanna be, what i wanna do, i know what I wanna do. become a computer engineer and start a company. where do i start, all that i can find is stuff on software engineering but i want to know hardware engineering too. why do ebay sellers shoot up the price of an old computer while it also being not functional, dirty, missing something, or shown in a youtube video. i hate living in conservative texas, i'm a gay teen yet i can't be open because i have subconsciously absorbed their 'act gay to be straight' personality and all my past shit and current personality is just plain creepy, not like they'd accept me in the first place. i explore my sexuality in middle school, it's held over my head, i explore my religion, held over my head. i'm so fucking done with it but i know suicide isn't the answer so i just live with it??? i don't know, i'm lost and my parents aren't any help. i have nowhere to turn to except the internet yet it is possibly the shittiest place to be raised on.