Senor Cacodemon

Hey, just would like to quickly clarify as to why I am no longer apart of the doom community and why I stopped playing Doom. Let me say this first, I love doom and I always will. It helped me during a tough time where I was an extreme antisocial weirdo. I love the gunplay, the level design, the music, and etc. However as I grew I stopped playing the game, I felt like I was way overplaying it and I was making the game my entire life/personality. So I started to play other games and return to other video games that were more traditional to me such as Sonic the Hedgehog, Super Mario, and etc. I took a long break from Doom, still thinking that this game called to me and that I would be playing it nonstop till the day I die. However that's not the truth. Their was a chunk of my gaming life in which I would not have played Doom even if my entire life depended on it. I had played so much that even the thought of playing it made me want to uninstall every single Doom related thing on my computer. I was forcing Doom onto my family and friends and was just being a pretty annoying person. And about my YouTube channel, I had to make a complete video game topic change just so I could feel happy with the content I was posting. During this time I just wanted nothing to do with Doom and I just wanted to branch out to different topics. Making myself only play Doom for a very long time was bad for how I felt and my social life, my friends began to stop calling me up and even my own brother stopped hanging out with me. Once I branched out to different topics, I changed as a person and I felt a lot more content with my gaming life. My friends started wanting to play games with me again and me and my brother actually had a normal conversation. I love Doom and I always will, its just that this game franchise does not paint a real portrait about who I am and what I love. I'm a nerd, I love game series such as Five Night's at Freddy's, Super Mario, Sonic, and etc. Though filling up my life with only Doom just was not good for me and like I said plenty of times. Even though I still love Doom, I just can not picture myself really playing the game a lot anymore because of what happened in the past. I want to play other games and be a different person then just the guy who plays Doom. I wanted to fall back to things I actually loved and associate myself with, I felt lame being associated with Super Mario, Five Night's at Freddy's and etc. I thought doom was really cool and if I wore Doom merch, played the game every second of my life, talked about it and etc. that I would be the coolest guy on the planet. However, I do not care about that anymore and I just want to play games and be associated with games that I love. 

To finish this off, I still love Doom, and I always will. It's just that, Doom was its own Era in my life that I will have to move on from. Of course, if I pick up my YouTube channel I will still occasionally upload Doom content and just things like that. Though now I realize that I just want to play the games that I love without being limited by my only Doom mindset. Alright, I hope you have a good day. See you around. And who knows, maybe one day I'll return to Doom.