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some days the linedefs quietly say "fuck you" when you ask them to speak to you.....

I still don't have cable set up at the new place, but I've managed to get internet access on my desktop using a slightly convoluted method.
 
My cell phone has as unlimited data plan, but no USB tethering. My mom gave her old phone to my wife, but it has no service. I connected her phone to mine via WiFi hotspot, and connected it to my computer via USB.
 
I can't help but feel that I beat the system in some small way.

Dark Castle by @Virgil (review posted 12/05/17)
 

 
  
 
  

Much respect Lut, and Linguica. I realize being Administrator's for this forum has grown into a massive and mentally exhausting responsibility. Thanks for doing what you do for so many years.
 
I'd like to apologize on behalf of the behavior of people that stormed my recent and ironically titled "People Suck" thread. I'm a trusting person and I've made some amazing friends by assuming the best of people rather than the worst, and I think many people can benefit from adopting a similar philosophy. Skepticism is very healthy and useful in small doses but sometimes it goes wild to the point of xenophobia against perfectly harmless people.

But most importantly I'd like to apologize on behalf of myself. I don't mean to hurt people. I do say some shit that might be dark to you and pretty normal to me. I don't know how destructive it is until it re-exposes itself, misrepresented in its most cruel and scandalous form in my threads. Its not an excuse to say that without feedback, I'm being denied the ability to help in repairing these damaged relationships. Its in both of our best interests to work this out from where it started, and Lut is right that this is best handled by PMs. 
 
I don't know how to respond to people who continue to find reasons to either fight with me or back up the people who do it at the most inopportune times. I've reached out to many of these people to talk to about it privately and I think they'd be concerned about the damage it would do to their reputation if other people got to see their responses in that context.
 
I love Doom and its surrounding community and I dream someday that it won't be so difficult to just be yourself AND be a doom fan. 

A new-year resolution is to play more Doom maps, write more reviews of them, and always include a picture.  Let's make use of the new Doomworld front-end!

Much respect Lut, and Linguica. I realize being Administrator's for this forum has grown into a massive and mentally exhausting responsibility. Thanks for doing what you do for so many years.
 
I'd like to apologize on behalf of the behavior of people that stormed my recent and ironically titled "People Suck" thread. I'm a trusting person and I've made some amazing friends by assuming the best of people rather than the worst, and I think many people can benefit from adopting a similar philosophy. Skepticism is very healthy and useful in small doses but sometimes it goes wild to the point of xenophobia against perfectly harmless people.

But most importantly I'd like to apologize on behalf of myself. I don't mean to hurt people. I do say some shit that might be dark to you and pretty normal to me. I don't know how destructive it is until it re-exposes itself, misrepresented in its most cruel and scandalous form in my threads. Its not an excuse to say that without feedback, I'm being denied the ability to help in repairing these damaged relationships. Its in both of our best interests to work this out from where it started, and Lut is right that this is best handled by PMs. 
 
I don't know how to respond to people who continue to find reasons to either fight with me or back up the people who do it at the most inopportune times. I've reached out to many of these people to talk to about it privately and I think they'd be concerned about the damage it would do to their reputation if other people got to see their responses in that context.
 
I love Doom and its surrounding community and I dream someday that it won't be so difficult to just be yourself AND be a doom fan. 

Much respect Lut, and Linguica. I realize being Administrator's for this forum has grown into a massive and mentally exhausting responsibility. Thanks for doing what you do for so many years.
 
I'd like to apologize on behalf of the behavior of people that stormed my recent and ironically titled "People Suck" thread. I'm a trusting person and I've made some amazing friends by assuming the best of people rather than the worst, and I think many people can benefit from adopting a similar philosophy. Skepticism is very healthy and useful in small doses but sometimes it goes wild to the point of xenophobia against perfectly harmless people.

But most importantly I'd like to apologize on behalf of myself. I don't mean to hurt people. I do say some shit that might be dark to you and pretty normal to me. I don't know how destructive it is until it re-exposes itself, misrepresented in its most cruel and scandalous form in my threads. Its not an excuse to say that without feedback, I'm being denied the ability to help in repairing these damaged relationships. Its in both of our best interests to work this out from where it started, and Lut is right that this is best handled by PMs. 
 
I don't know how to respond to people who continue to find reasons to either fight with me or back up the people who do it at the most inopportune times. I've reached out to many of these people to talk to about it privately and I think they'd be concerned about the damage it would do to their reputation if other people got to see their responses in that context.
 
I love Doom and its surrounding community and I dream someday that it won't be so difficult to just be yourself AND be a doom fan. 

Black and White by @Virgil (review posted 12/05/17)
 

 
  

Much respect Lut, and Linguica. I realize being Administrator's for this forum has grown into a massive and mentally exhausting responsibility. Thanks for doing what you do for so many years.
 
I'd like to apologize on behalf of the behavior of people that stormed my recent and ironically titled "People Suck" thread. I'm a trusting person and I've made some amazing friends by assuming the best of people rather than the worst, and I think many people can benefit from adopting a similar philosophy. Skepticism is very healthy and useful in small doses but sometimes it goes wild to the point of xenophobia against perfectly harmless people.

But most importantly I'd like to apologize on behalf of myself. I don't mean to hurt people. I do say some shit that might be dark to you and pretty normal to me. I don't know how destructive it is until it re-exposes itself, misrepresented in its most cruel and scandalous form in my threads. Its not an excuse to say that without feedback, I'm being denied the ability to help in repairing these damaged relationships. Its in both of our best interests to work this out from where it started, and Lut is right that this is best handled by PMs. 
 
I don't know how to respond to people who continue to find reasons to either fight with me or back up the people who do it at the most inopportune times. I've reached out to many of these people to talk to about it privately and I think they'd be concerned about the damage it would do to their reputation if other people got to see their responses in that context.
 
I love Doom and its surrounding community and I dream someday that it won't be so difficult to just be yourself AND be a doom fan. 

Much respect Lut, and Linguica. I realize being Administrator's for this forum has grown into a massive and mentally exhausting responsibility. Thanks for doing what you do for so many years.
 
I'd like to apologize on behalf of the behavior of people that stormed my recent and ironically titled "People Suck" thread. I'm a trusting person and I've made some amazing friends by assuming the best of people rather than the worst, and I think many people can benefit from adopting a similar philosophy. Skepticism is very healthy and useful in small doses but sometimes it goes wild to the point of xenophobia against perfectly harmless people.

But most importantly I'd like to apologize on behalf of myself. I don't mean to hurt people. I do say some shit that might be dark to you and pretty normal to me. I don't know how destructive it is until it re-exposes itself, misrepresented in its most cruel and scandalous form in my threads. Its not an excuse to say that without feedback, I'm being denied the ability to help in repairing these damaged relationships. Its in both of our best interests to work this out from where it started, and Lut is right that this is best handled by PMs. 
 
I don't know how to respond to people who continue to find reasons to either fight with me or back up the people who do it at the most inopportune times. I've reached out to many of these people to talk to about it privately and I think they'd be concerned about the damage it would do to their reputation if other people got to see their responses in that context.
 
I love Doom and its surrounding community and I dream someday that it won't be so difficult to just be yourself AND be a doom fan. 

Much respect Lut, and Linguica. I realize being Administrator's for this forum has grown into a massive and mentally exhausting responsibility. Thanks for doing what you do for so many years.
 
I'd like to apologize on behalf of the behavior of people that stormed my recent and ironically titled "People Suck" thread. I'm a trusting person and I've made some amazing friends by assuming the best of people rather than the worst, and I think many people can benefit from adopting a similar philosophy. Skepticism is very healthy and useful in small doses but sometimes it goes wild to the point of xenophobia against perfectly harmless people.

But most importantly I'd like to apologize on behalf of myself. I don't mean to hurt people. I do say some shit that might be dark to you and pretty normal to me. I don't know how destructive it is until it re-exposes itself, misrepresented in its most cruel and scandalous form in my threads. Its not an excuse to say that without feedback, I'm being denied the ability to help in repairing these damaged relationships. Its in both of our best interests to work this out from where it started, and Lut is right that this is best handled by PMs. 
 
I don't know how to respond to people who continue to find reasons to either fight with me or back up the people who do it at the most inopportune times. I've reached out to many of these people to talk to about it privately and I think they'd be concerned about the damage it would do to their reputation if other people got to see their responses in that context.
 
I love Doom and its surrounding community and I dream someday that it won't be so difficult to just be yourself AND be a doom fan. 

I hate snow...
 

Bad Religion has been released:
 
Download
 
 

Is that Serj Tankian?

Is that Serj Tankian?

my new case sits on some racks I had alongside my desk unlike my last one which sat under the desk on the floor.
 
not having to worry about kicking my computer anymore is nice. Also makes it much easier to access usb ports, headphone jacks, and the like. Also, it has front headphone jacks which means alongside my ear surgery I can actually use headphones with my computer now, which is very nice.

The luckiest I ever got in Hearts, just wow.
 

Sweet mother of pearl, this has changed a bit. Needing a new PC as old laptop crapped out. New laptop isn't brilliant. Should be back to making stuff soon, hopefully.

a e s t h e t i c

Today sucked, so I'm offsetting that by releasing another one of these.
This is Atmosphere, as featured in MAP31 of TNT: Revilution (Anubis by valkiriforce), and it's my personal favourite of the MIDIs I contributed to that WAD. Really happy with how this one turned out.
 
No video of the bass guitar here because bullshit. :|
 
MP3 | MIDI

Have you ever thought to yourself when you start a map "oh god this isn't gonna work at all" and then you look at the final result and feel satisfied?

I've always had massive amounts of respect for the Doom community. Growing up, theres was never a game I loved more than Doom, and for years its been the only game I play. Having made maps myself as a means of giving back to the community that continually satisfies my appetite for more Doom, I have an enduring love for anyone who has done their part to keep this game relavent for so long.
 
Im very serious about this. Whether its conversations about mapping philosophy and gameplay, ogling at screenshots, participating in peoples projects or events, its all been very stimulating. I couldn't make this up. I have a deep and profound love for all of this. Ive literally wept thinking about Doomers who have passed away. It saddens me when I think of Doomers I've talked to who once shared the same burning flame of optimism for Doom as I have but moved on to do other things.
 
All the interesting talks, the hilarious shit shows, the jokes, the demos, the multiplayer, the collaborations, all of it has made everything in Doom so fulfilling to me. I've been late for work, bailed on plans, and have even fought with my wife to write detailed feedback for maps, host a podcast, help with peoples projects, anything i can do to help benefit other doomers. I don't believe I could possibly repay the community for how much good its done for me. I cant find other people who love this game like I do in my normal every day life. Theyre just not around. But they're here. Doom would just be this weird closet thing that I do alone and no one else understands. It would be this huge empty void in my life if this community weren't here.
 
I'm being completely up front when i tell you how much i appreciate all of you. Its ok when its not reciprocated. But on numerous occasions in the past few years Ive read more and more posts that suggest I'm really toxic for this place. Maybe its funny, i dont know. But its been feeling very real to me. People I've had great respect for consider me an enemy, people I've always thought to be friends have gone distant, and some people I've never talked to before already despise me. I don't know how many of you are serious when you make posts here that suggest that I'm not one to be trusted, but it really hurts. I don't like to be one to cry for help, but if you're not one of them, please send a message to my PM inbox. I really need it right about now.

I've always had massive amounts of respect for the Doom community. Growing up, theres was never a game I loved more than Doom, and for years its been the only game I play. Having made maps myself as a means of giving back to the community that continually satisfies my appetite for more Doom, I have an enduring love for anyone who has done their part to keep this game relavent for so long.
 
Im very serious about this. Whether its conversations about mapping philosophy and gameplay, ogling at screenshots, participating in peoples projects or events, its all been very stimulating. I couldn't make this up. I have a deep and profound love for all of this. Ive literally wept thinking about Doomers who have passed away. It saddens me when I think of Doomers I've talked to who once shared the same burning flame of optimism for Doom as I have but moved on to do other things.
 
All the interesting talks, the hilarious shit shows, the jokes, the demos, the multiplayer, the collaborations, all of it has made everything in Doom so fulfilling to me. I've been late for work, bailed on plans, and have even fought with my wife to write detailed feedback for maps, host a podcast, help with peoples projects, anything i can do to help benefit other doomers. I don't believe I could possibly repay the community for how much good its done for me. I cant find other people who love this game like I do in my normal every day life. Theyre just not around. But they're here. Doom would just be this weird closet thing that I do alone and no one else understands. It would be this huge empty void in my life if this community weren't here.
 
I'm being completely up front when i tell you how much i appreciate all of you. Its ok when its not reciprocated. But on numerous occasions in the past few years Ive read more and more posts that suggest I'm really toxic for this place. Maybe its funny, i dont know. But its been feeling very real to me. People I've had great respect for consider me an enemy, people I've always thought to be friends have gone distant, and some people I've never talked to before already despise me. I don't know how many of you are serious when you make posts here that suggest that I'm not one to be trusted, but it really hurts. I don't like to be one to cry for help, but if you're not one of them, please send a message to my PM inbox. I really need it right about now.

I've always had massive amounts of respect for the Doom community. Growing up, theres was never a game I loved more than Doom, and for years its been the only game I play. Having made maps myself as a means of giving back to the community that continually satisfies my appetite for more Doom, I have an enduring love for anyone who has done their part to keep this game relavent for so long.
 
Im very serious about this. Whether its conversations about mapping philosophy and gameplay, ogling at screenshots, participating in peoples projects or events, its all been very stimulating. I couldn't make this up. I have a deep and profound love for all of this. Ive literally wept thinking about Doomers who have passed away. It saddens me when I think of Doomers I've talked to who once shared the same burning flame of optimism for Doom as I have but moved on to do other things.
 
All the interesting talks, the hilarious shit shows, the jokes, the demos, the multiplayer, the collaborations, all of it has made everything in Doom so fulfilling to me. I've been late for work, bailed on plans, and have even fought with my wife to write detailed feedback for maps, host a podcast, help with peoples projects, anything i can do to help benefit other doomers. I don't believe I could possibly repay the community for how much good its done for me. I cant find other people who love this game like I do in my normal every day life. Theyre just not around. But they're here. Doom would just be this weird closet thing that I do alone and no one else understands. It would be this huge empty void in my life if this community weren't here.
 
I'm being completely up front when i tell you how much i appreciate all of you. Its ok when its not reciprocated. But on numerous occasions in the past few years Ive read more and more posts that suggest I'm really toxic for this place. Maybe its funny, i dont know. But its been feeling very real to me. People I've had great respect for consider me an enemy, people I've always thought to be friends have gone distant, and some people I've never talked to before already despise me. I don't know how many of you are serious when you make posts here that suggest that I'm not one to be trusted, but it really hurts. I don't like to be one to cry for help, but if you're not one of them, please send a message to my PM inbox. I really need it right about now.