Senor Cacodemon

Hey, just would like to quickly clarify as to why I am no longer apart of the doom community and why I stopped playing Doom. Let me say this first, I love doom and I always will. It helped me during a tough time where I was an extreme antisocial weirdo. I love the gunplay, the level design, the music, and etc. However as I grew I stopped playing the game, I felt like I was way overplaying it and I was making the game my entire life/personality. So I started to play other games and return to other video games that were more traditional to me such as Sonic the Hedgehog, Super Mario, and etc. I took a long break from Doom, still thinking that this game called to me and that I would be playing it nonstop till the day I die. However that's not the truth. Their was a chunk of my gaming life in which I would not have played Doom even if my entire life depended on it. I had played so much that even the thought of playing it made me want to uninstall every single Doom related thing on my computer. I was forcing Doom onto my family and friends and was just being a pretty annoying person. And about my YouTube channel, I had to make a complete video game topic change just so I could feel happy with the content I was posting. During this time I just wanted nothing to do with Doom and I just wanted to branch out to different topics. Making myself only play Doom for a very long time was bad for how I felt and my social life, my friends began to stop calling me up and even my own brother stopped hanging out with me. Once I branched out to different topics, I changed as a person and I felt a lot more content with my gaming life. My friends started wanting to play games with me again and me and my brother actually had a normal conversation. I love Doom and I always will, its just that this game franchise does not paint a real portrait about who I am and what I love. I'm a nerd, I love game series such as Five Night's at Freddy's, Super Mario, Sonic, and etc. Though filling up my life with only Doom just was not good for me and like I said plenty of times. Even though I still love Doom, I just can not picture myself really playing the game a lot anymore because of what happened in the past. I want to play other games and be a different person then just the guy who plays Doom. I wanted to fall back to things I actually loved and associate myself with, I felt lame being associated with Super Mario, Five Night's at Freddy's and etc. I thought doom was really cool and if I wore Doom merch, played the game every second of my life, talked about it and etc. that I would be the coolest guy on the planet. However, I do not care about that anymore and I just want to play games and be associated with games that I love. 

To finish this off, I still love Doom, and I always will. It's just that, Doom was its own Era in my life that I will have to move on from. Of course, if I pick up my YouTube channel I will still occasionally upload Doom content and just things like that. Though now I realize that I just want to play the games that I love without being limited by my only Doom mindset. Alright, I hope you have a good day. See you around. And who knows, maybe one day I'll return to Doom.

Started playing mighty doom and I'm afraid to say, I'm quite addicted.

I'm going to try and do this dumb project with my brother where we play doom but we treat it like a movie. If it actually happens it will be posted on youtube but I doubt it will happen.

I am well, and will be back soon.

I'm gonna be taking a break from doom for a little bit so I'll be back soon.